I Would If I Could But I Can't Hate You

I can't hate you because you're the man, who slept with the woman, who had the man, whom I love.  

I can't hate you because you're the woman, who married the man, who had the child, whom I love.      

I can't hate you because you're the man, who gave me the ring that produced the life, that I love.        

I can't hate you because you're the child, who believes in Jesus and has accepted the God, whom I love.  

I can't hate you because I'm the child, who is lead by Christ, who submits to His words of love.

Darn, I'm so sorry. I would if I could, but I just can't...hate you.

GE Williams
                                 

"For as the body is one, and hath many members, and all the members of the body, being many, are one body; so also is Christ. For in one Spirit were we all baptized into one body, whether Jews or Greeks, whether bond or free; and were all made to drink of one Spirit. For the body is not one member, but many.If the foot shall say, Because I am not the hand, I am not of the body; it is not therefore not of the body.
 And if the ear shall say, Because I am not the eye, I am not of the body; it is not therefore not of the body.
If the whole body were an eye, where were the hearing? If the whole were hearing, where were the smelling?

But now hath God set the members each one of them in the body, even as it pleased him. And if they were all one member, where were the body? But now they are many members, but one body. And the eye cannot say to the hand, I have no need of thee: or again the head to the feet, I have no need of you. Nay, much rather, those members of the body which seem to be more feeble are necessary: and those parts of the body, which we think to be less honorable, upon these we bestow more abundant honor; and our uncomely parts have more abundant comeliness; whereas our comely parts have no need: but God tempered the body together, giving more abundant honor to that part which lacked; that there should be no schism in the body; but that the members should have the same care one for another. And whether one member suffereth, all the members suffer with it; or one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it" (1 Corinthians 12:12-26 ASV).

Perfect in every way but ONE

 Perfect in every way but ONE

So I have a natural constitution that drives my life. Unbelievable I know. But I have had one my whole life. It goes something like this:

Let's say that I make a goal to lose weight. In order to reach this goal I decided that I am going to start juicing vegetables and I will drink the juice twice a day. Sounds good so far, right?

In my constitution, I put this formula into action....consistently...everyday. That means on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Each morning I get up and juice a bag of carrots, kale and sweet potatoes to drink at that moment and at night. Then I do it again the next day.

Now following my constitution, I will need to consistently have a bag of carrots, kale and sweet potatoes to juice. So that means I am running to the store several times a week to accommodate my resolve. (One time I  went to the store and they were out of kale. So I had to go to another store to find the kale).

I know what you are thinking "Why don't you just make it without the kale?" Great question. That would be less stress however and the goal isn't peace it is to drink this concoction twice a day until the desired weight loss results are reached. That is my constitution.

Before I could not see the undue stress that I was voluntarily putting on my life. I thought I want to lose weight and that is a great goal. It will make me healthier, I will look fitter and feel better. Plus goals are excellent to have. They mean I am moving in a direction, forward. Finally I am being challenged to be a better me. All of the above things are perfect except for one thing.

I am very religious about my constitution. I believe it won't work unless it goes the way I planned? I have done the research. I am notorious for forcing things to happen. So I said perfect in every way but one, right? What is that one thing that is missing? Margin, space. Where you ask? In my brain. That constitution that I was so religious about; that I was so proud to cling to didn't allow for guidance from the Holy Spirit that lives inside me. I was too locked up...for years. I had a plan. I know the way. I was confident that I was right. So bull-dose ahead. Stick to the plan and I will succeed.

So did I? Succeed. And at what cost? That guiding Spirit I spoke of earlier brings peace. John 14: 16-18 confirms this belief, "And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you. I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.^"

Peace bring longevity. Longevity brings stability. Stability brings massive success. How do I know? Because I took a step back from my constitution. It was too expensive to keep. I decided for the sake of peace, longevity and stability I would let Him lead. I still see it, you know. My constitution. I watch it and I recognize it. Then I surrendered it and I keep surrendering it over and over again. How about massive success? Given, with a peace and a bounce back ratio that defies understanding over and over again.

Titanium Tinkleberry part 2

It is true. He is a handful at times, but I still love him like the rest.
I still give him my very best.
I really don't mind the stress.
He is a mess, but worth the test.
My life would be less without my new guest.

I am really unaffected that he is more then I expected.
You know, he needed to be protected.
He was being disrepected.
He was subjected and then sadly rejected.

But he is rough and he is tough.
And he tries to beat up stuff.

Yes, he is brash and he is rash with a little sash.
But he is there and he cares.
He often stares and he doesn't share.

He is a wonder to behold.
I'll have him till he's old.
He is priceless to be sold.
Soon he'll listen when he's told.
He is just a pup.
So young. So bold.
And fortunately worth more then gold.

GE Williams

The legend of a Solider

As I reflect on the events that have past, I struggle to put into words the unmatched characteristics that make up "You."

The unparalleled mental acuteness of the likes which my eyes have never seen and such a passion for your duty as a solider.

The obvious value you place on life as precious as the sunrise after days of rain.

In conversation, it's as if you read my mind, while you finished the thoughts I haven't thought of yet.

As it is nearly impossible to sneak up on you, it is just as impossible not to feel honored and blessed by the priviledge Of knowing you.

Yet a confusion still exists as to how your life, being what it is, moves on.

You inspire greatness in people who can only expect to achieve an 8th of your wonder.

As I talked with you day after day, I would never know what makes you so exceptional but only how your unconditional love blesses those around you.

May your legacy never be forgotten!

Meant To Be

It took us a year to get it but it is finally ours. The house we live in. When we were looking, each house was perfect except for one thing. It was always that one thing that prevented us from moving in. Some may say that we got the house that was meant to be. Maybe........ But I believe that we were meant to have every house we looked at. I believe that there are other forces in this world that prevented us from getting each house and because we kept believing and moving forward we got the house that fits the promise in Ephesians 3:20, "Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us."
 
What is the basis of my belief? Great question. The foundation of this faith is built on my belief in Jesus Christ and His teachings in the bible. See it says in Romans 8:28 KJV, "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose" (Romans 8:28 KJV). This belief is what kept us moving forward in the face of rejection. All things include disappointments, lost income, incredible rules and insurmountable odds. So we don't have to get frustrated or be afraid because eventually as long as we keep believing and moving forward are goals will be met. Isaiah 61:7 promises this, "For your shame ye shall have double; and for confusion they shall rejoice in their portion: therefore in their land they shall possess the double: everlasting joy shall be unto them."

So why do I believe that we got a house that was "exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think?"  It not because the house is the biggest one that we looked at because it isn't. It isn't because the house is the cheapest that we looked at because it isn't. It is because this house is on the same street that I lived on before. It's because this house wasn't even on the market when we first started looking for houses. It is because this street wasn't even a consideration the whole time we were looking. 

The house I was in before was smaller and the fenced yard faced the street. All of the fixtures were standard except for the glass top stove and the fence was old. It had an orange tree in the backyard and yellow and green bamboo. Now this house is bigger. It has a digital lock on the front door. The fixtures are customer installed with a glass stove embedded in the tile of the counter and stainless steel appliances. This house has a patio. There is a lake in the backyard. I didn't even know there was a lake on this street.  Here in the new house it doesn't ever feel as if I lived here before. My surroundings are so much more upscale that I am just really impressed everyday.

I fought for the first house. I jumped through lots of hoops to get it and it was an afterthought because I was going for a better house in another neighborhood but the owner won't sign the contract after a year of negotiating. The loan was going to expire and I didn't want to have to reapply so I found my old house on this block. I lived there for 2 years before I got divorced and the house was foreclosed on. 
So if I believe everything that happens was meant to happen then I was meant to lose that first house and get divorced. But I don't believe that I believe this: "But Jesus beheld [them], and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible" (Matthew 19:26 KJV). It took 3.5 years for the bank to foreclose on the last house.  I lived there the whole time. Thank you God.

A while back I learned that God's will for our lives is not a dot. It is not a bulls eye that if you miss it then you have to live the rest of your life in regret. We live in a world of infinite possibilities. A world designed by God. Each realty is created by the choices we make which are based on the thoughts we think. We think those thoughts because of what we believe.  If things that happened in our lives were meant to be then why do we have free will? Why does the bible say, Jesus is in heaven interceding for us (Romans 8:34 KJV).

If everything that happened was just meant to be why is there a whole scientific discipline that deals with infinite possibilities entitled Quantum Physics? The bible says in Jeremiah 29:11 KJV,
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith Jehovah, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope in your latter end." Where is the hope in the belief that everything that happens happened because it was meant to be? Where is the peace in the rejection that this belief produces?

Doesn't it give you more hope and make make life easier to believe that there are infinite opportunities out there for you to explore and that if you miss one your life can be even better if you keep moving forward and keep believing?





 

Titanium Tinkleberry

I have a story for you. My puppy is called Titanium Tinkle Berry. He is about a year old now but when I met him, he looked like this: 

 He was about 4 months old in these photos. Here is the story:

 I couldn't take it. That whimpering sound. Where was it coming from? Every night and in the early morning, I would hear this sound. Especially around 2 am when I would take my other dog, Diamante, out for her midnight tinkle. Finally I saw him. He was small. He was curled up in a ball most of the time. He stayed close to the bushes. It was a dog, a puppy. He was an ugly dog. He was skinny and scared. He never looked up. I started to watch him day after day. He was left out in the hot sun with no shade and no water. He was left out in the rain and during down pours. Each time I looked there was no food or water. He had no shelter. It broke my heart. Where was his masters? Who was taken care of him? Why was he left to suffer?

As it turns out the puppy belonged to the new neighbors. A tall, black, heavy-set American-Islander. He had dread locks and was married to and American-white woman. They seems like a happy enough couple. I am am only 5'4", 125lbs. I didn't want to talk to him alone so I told my husband. Immediately, he went to the other yard to check on the puppy. He reported what he saw. Then he started throwing him hot dogs and giving him water. The puppy gobbled up the hotdogs so fast he chocked at first. He tossed the water bowl over every time. We didn't approach him. We were also scared. We didn't know the neighbors and didn't want to cause any problems. However there was a problem here, a big problem. So how do I love my neighbor who is clearly abusing this dog? 

So I decided to buy it a dog. A dog house would provide it shade and protection. It would be a gift to the people that lived there so there wouldn't be any animosity between neighbors. After all, maybe the people wanted the dog. Maybe they came from another country. In other countries, the dogs are not as renowned as the dogs in America. My family is from Honduras. There the dogs are just as skinny. They live outside and eat rodents or scraps. I wanted to give my neighbor the benefit of the doubt. My husband and I looked online for dog houses. They were a little out of my price range. So my husband offered to build it a do house instead. he said it would be cheaper. On the heels of that endeavor, there was another down pour. I cried. The next day the owner of the puppy let him loose to run around. I was out walking Diamonte. Another neighbor caught the puppy and fed it oatmeal. When she saw me she expressed her saddest about the dog. She couldn't keep it herself and wanted to know what I thought. We talked and when she was ready to go inside she didn't know what to do with the dog, So I took it back to it's owner. 

I told him that it was dangerous to let the dog roam like this because there is another dog that attacks all the dogs on the block. He said he knew that is how the puppy got the gash on his head. Then I said well, I need another dog for Diamante. I explained how Diamonte grow up with another dog that had died recently. I also said that she had gained some weight and need a friend to help her lose it. Then I pointed out that the puppy needed to gain weight and so you can see how theses dogs can help each other. My neighbor hemmed and hawed. Then I said I will give you $50. That was the amount of money that I was going to spend on the dog house. Sold. My neighbor gave me the puppy. He didn't have a name. The neighbor called him pipsqueak. So I named him Titanium Tinkle berry. He's a Rhodesian Ridge back mix and it turns out he is worth $1200- $1500. He looks like this now:

The Burning Flame

There is a burning flame in the middle of a rose.
It started small, but over time it grew.
Many people have come and tried to blow it out, but with all attempts everyone has failed.
The rose will never grow with this flame burning inside of it.
Sooner or later it will die from the heat coming from within.